cnn was in the courtroom as charges against pistorius were being read. must have been stunning to see. >> reporter: absolutely. i'm outside the courtroom now. and oscar's brother walked past us, tears in his eyes. walking with the legal team. this family very much in shock. of course, also reeva steenkamp, the girl shot by oscar, also said to be deeply distraught by the events. what happened inside this courtroom this morning, very emotional. very upsetting for everybody who watched it. oscar pistorius, a spectacular fall from grace, wearing a gray suit, walked from the holding cell into court, and whether the charge was read out, he literally broke down, he buried his head in his hand and just started sobbing uncontrollably. later on as the proceedings went on, as the magistrate spoke to the prosecutor and to the defense, oscar just sat there, his head bowed and trying to control himself physically, but you could see his body was still shaking uncontrollably. he occasionally just started crying, sometimes you could see he was praying to himself. i mean